Maybe this is it…
This is where the lies and secrets lead you.
A disjointed place with discontentment.
Running, fleeing, fighting,
whatever you call it,
anything but what it really is.
It sounds like I’m just blaming you but it’s the fault of two parties, like most situations.
I let too much slack in, I gave up, I pushed and that was it, simple gaps, undoing of the good, hardening of the resolve.
Well it was more than that, but this isn’t a psychoanalysis of me.
I didn’t want to get involved so I didn’t, and now I’m not. I’m not involved in a lot. This is what I wanted, isn’t it?
There’s never a balance.
Maybe I’ll stop, do exactly what I did before because I still don’t know if this isn’t the way I want it.
Maybe it’s the beer goggles?
But I was out a long time ago, and that truth I know for sure.
On a different note, GAHHHHJGDUKBGUO, my phone died when writing this =.=”, thank goodness wordpress saved most of it =D.
Promises of more ramblings.
Just need to work on that good old time management.
Should be sleeping,
Helen ♥